I seem to find myself griping at Lena Kate and raising my voice way too often lately. I want to try really hard to take different approach. I know I resort to this because I can tell her something at least 3 times with no response and then have to raise my voice to get her attention, ehich drives me crazy. Trust me, I would rather not have to raise my voice. It makes me feel like "that mom." After dealing with this day in and day out I guess I get tired of it and grump at her. As a mother of only 3.5 years this is by far my hardest challenge. How does one raise an obedient child with tons of energy and enthusiasm to tame? It is hard. Discipline is hard. I need to focus on discipline and teaching and not griping or raising my voice. It can be done, but I must use the patience God has planted deep inside me as a mother. I want with all my heart for my children to be well-behaved yet still be children with personality! I know I am not alone, but sometimes feel like those closest to me don't understand the difficulty because it is not their responsibility as the mother. This is where I love all of you other mothers of young children in this situation currently. Thank you for your friendship in person as well as honest blogging from those I wish I have met in person. We will get through it together and must remember God's grace and mercy when all else gets us down. Thanks to Him, there is tomorrow to start anew. I plan to not put off until tomorrow what I will start today.
I love my girls with all my heart and want them to know me as a great mother and one to look up to and aspire to emulate when it is their turn to be a mother. About a week ago I was griping at Lena Kate for who knows what and as I turned my back she called me a grumpy old troll. I did not hear it, but Lane did. Of course, he thought it was funny, probably because he agreed with her. It is funny and it also hurts. Sometimes the truth hurts. I know I am not always a grumpy old troll, but probably more often than I should be! These are the days I want to cherish for I know they will be long gone soon enough. I also know these are the impressionable years for my girls.
Rather than look back, today I will look forward to what I can do better and lean on God for support. I know when Lena Kate hugs me and randomly tells me she loves me, I am doing alright. She can melt my heart in a moment.
I will also hide Three Billy Goats Gruff so Lena Kate won't request to read that book. Who wants to be a grumpy old troll?! 😉
3 comments:
I can so relate to this! I struggle so much with Q, he won't listen and it doesn't even help when I do raise my voice, so I don't know why I do. Its just the frustration I guess. I hate it so much, and always said I would never be one to holler. Boy, that came back and bit me in the butt. I hate it. I have been trying to work on it too, because it doesn't do either one of us any good.
I wanted to type holler, why didn't I?! 3.5 is tough- today has been pretty good though. I think this post did me some good-hope it helped you too.
Oh boy....I'm right with you ladies. Scout tries my patience like I never would have imagined. She is so independent and never asks for help. There is just no telling what she'll get into. Reno on the other hand is a different ball game. That "mama's baby" business drives me crazy. Oh well, someday I'll wish he was "mama's baby", right? Glad to hear there are others with the same troubles.
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